Monday, December 28, 2009
so sad but true, for me theres only you.
Hi babies!
X'Mas 2009 was greattt!! ((:
Well, last year's xmas was pretty much very screwed up for me so Im glad this year wasnt!
I didnt eat any log cakes but I had the best companies and its all that I'd ever wish for.
Well, Oct to Dec was full of heartaches and I cant believe Im actually surviving all these, or rather Im trying SO hard to.
I really love ALL my friends and I cant and never will be able to say enough THANK YOU to them.
Thanks for being there to listen, to advise, to tell me I deserve so much better, to give me hugs and kisses, to make me laugh and buy me roses!
Ohmygwad. Receiving roses from people you love and care is indeed very different.. esp when your best friends are the ones giving them to you!
It melted my hearttttttt awwww <3
Santa, Im very thankful.
I havent love anyone this much before and it really pains me to see how this r/s had turned out to be. Like you said, you need time. & I'd give you just that, even though Im dying inside. Many people ask me to leave, to give up, to forget. I would very much want to be able to do this too, but I just cant. I still feel that I havent tried hard enough.
I guess Im not going to countdown towards 2010 because I am so not expecting/welcoming it with a happy or excited mood. Matters of the heart, more and more issues to come. I feel so troubled and confused. The one thing Im scare of losing most are the close friends I have & I dont know if Im going to lose You. It did came as a surprise and this is definitely not the right time. My heart is so unsettled and I dont want to make any more wrong decisions to add on to those I've already made in life. Esp when You are involved, I so much dont wish to hurt You. Still, like You've said, at least You didnt make regrets. I hope You didnt.
X'Mas 2009 was greattt!! ((:
Well, last year's xmas was pretty much very screwed up for me so Im glad this year wasnt!
I didnt eat any log cakes but I had the best companies and its all that I'd ever wish for.
Well, Oct to Dec was full of heartaches and I cant believe Im actually surviving all these, or rather Im trying SO hard to.
I really love ALL my friends and I cant and never will be able to say enough THANK YOU to them.
Thanks for being there to listen, to advise, to tell me I deserve so much better, to give me hugs and kisses, to make me laugh and buy me roses!
Ohmygwad. Receiving roses from people you love and care is indeed very different.. esp when your best friends are the ones giving them to you!
It melted my hearttttttt awwww <3
Santa, Im very thankful.
I havent love anyone this much before and it really pains me to see how this r/s had turned out to be. Like you said, you need time. & I'd give you just that, even though Im dying inside. Many people ask me to leave, to give up, to forget. I would very much want to be able to do this too, but I just cant. I still feel that I havent tried hard enough.
I guess Im not going to countdown towards 2010 because I am so not expecting/welcoming it with a happy or excited mood. Matters of the heart, more and more issues to come. I feel so troubled and confused. The one thing Im scare of losing most are the close friends I have & I dont know if Im going to lose You. It did came as a surprise and this is definitely not the right time. My heart is so unsettled and I dont want to make any more wrong decisions to add on to those I've already made in life. Esp when You are involved, I so much dont wish to hurt You. Still, like You've said, at least You didnt make regrets. I hope You didnt.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Meaningful read,
If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.
You are falling in love with my insecurities,
and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me.
You are falling love with my immaturity,
my constant need to feel loved and appreciated,
my overactive tear ducts,
my internet obsession,
my tendency to be too clingy.
You fall in love with my troubled past,
and my hopes and dreams,
and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart.
If you fall in love with me,
you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.
But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you,
the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day.
You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say,
and the way I blush when people ask me about you.
But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me,
despite my thinking that it is impossible.
Me: "Do you think I can get over him?"
Q: "Yes but you will take a long time to recover"
Me: "Fuck sia, how you know?"
Q: "Because you love him a lot"
Me: "Haiz, Im screwed"
You are falling in love with my insecurities,
and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me.
You are falling love with my immaturity,
my constant need to feel loved and appreciated,
my overactive tear ducts,
my internet obsession,
my tendency to be too clingy.
You fall in love with my troubled past,
and my hopes and dreams,
and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart.
If you fall in love with me,
you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.
But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you,
the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day.
You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say,
and the way I blush when people ask me about you.
But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me,
despite my thinking that it is impossible.
Me: "Do you think I can get over him?"
Q: "Yes but you will take a long time to recover"
Me: "Fuck sia, how you know?"
Q: "Because you love him a lot"
Me: "Haiz, Im screwed"
Finally an update!
A BIG HELLO TO ALL :D
IM BACK TO my dearest sofatsofat.bs.com ;p
Year 2009 is coming to an end & there're so many stuff that has happened throughout the year!
Anw, I had food poisoning and it was so sad :(
I rested in bed for more than 24 hours straight!
& ate nothing but porridge and medicine~
;((((((((((((((
There're so much medication to take and its really gross :(
&... one big thing to update, Im Single now.
(even though I hated it to happen but sometimes in life you just have to make a decision)
Well, many stuff happened & most of it are on tumblr.
Even though its not what I really wanted but I really need to end all the sufferings.
It was simply too much for me to handle & I really dont want to celebrate Xmas with a foul mood or welcome 2010 with a huge rock in my heart.
IM BACK TO my dearest sofatsofat.bs.com ;p
Year 2009 is coming to an end & there're so many stuff that has happened throughout the year!
Anw, I had food poisoning and it was so sad :(
I rested in bed for more than 24 hours straight!
& ate nothing but porridge and medicine~
;((((((((((((((
There're so much medication to take and its really gross :(
&... one big thing to update, Im Single now.
(even though I hated it to happen but sometimes in life you just have to make a decision)
Well, many stuff happened & most of it are on tumblr.
Even though its not what I really wanted but I really need to end all the sufferings.
It was simply too much for me to handle & I really dont want to celebrate Xmas with a foul mood or welcome 2010 with a huge rock in my heart.
ANW I went out with my fav aunt Lily to celebrate her Bday on 17Dec :D
We did nothing but shop and eat around town (:
That day I traveled around Singapore via train pls -_-
Queenstown-CCK-Sembawang-Tanjong Pagar-Somerset!
Goodness!!
Anw, I went to stock up on my facial mask sheets before meeting the couple(aunt&uncle) @ 313 somerset!
Aunt Lily was doing her usual shopping @ Uniqlo & she got herself a pair of fantastic denim @ a steal! Then I saw some awesome belts as well! In leopard and zebra prints! I want :DD Didnt get it though. Then we shopped around 313 a little and went to have late lunch @ Tian Jin Guan!
They serve awesome ZHA JIAN MIAN & Chinese Pizza!!! :DDD
ION after that and everywhere seems to be having big sales!
Sadly, my pocket's empty :(((
Suppose to have dinner at this Restaurant @ TAKA but sadly, it relocated! :(
Tsktsk, was Aunt Lily's FAV luh :(
Then she had a SUDDEN crave for Seoul Garden so.. we landed up there!
Omg, it has been !@$#!% since I went there man.
It was pretty packed luh! Many people were celebrating their birthdays.
(& this was the reason why I got food poisoning)
After dinner, we walked around a bit to take pictures of pretty and shiny xmas trees!
at 9pm, we decided to go far east plaza to shop a little more..
& we waited for 25mins for a cab OMG my feets were friggin tired okay!
Luckily I wasnt in heels that day!
&& my aunt got me a Leopard tank which both of us lay our eyes on when we first got into the store!! & a belt & hairband for XMAS ((((:
Yay Im a HAPPY GIRL. =))
We did nothing but shop and eat around town (:
That day I traveled around Singapore via train pls -_-
Queenstown-CCK-Sembawang-Tanjong Pagar-Somerset!
Goodness!!
Anw, I went to stock up on my facial mask sheets before meeting the couple(aunt&uncle) @ 313 somerset!
Aunt Lily was doing her usual shopping @ Uniqlo & she got herself a pair of fantastic denim @ a steal! Then I saw some awesome belts as well! In leopard and zebra prints! I want :DD Didnt get it though. Then we shopped around 313 a little and went to have late lunch @ Tian Jin Guan!
They serve awesome ZHA JIAN MIAN & Chinese Pizza!!! :DDD
ION after that and everywhere seems to be having big sales!
Sadly, my pocket's empty :(((
Suppose to have dinner at this Restaurant @ TAKA but sadly, it relocated! :(
Tsktsk, was Aunt Lily's FAV luh :(
Then she had a SUDDEN crave for Seoul Garden so.. we landed up there!
Omg, it has been !@$#!% since I went there man.
It was pretty packed luh! Many people were celebrating their birthdays.
(& this was the reason why I got food poisoning)
After dinner, we walked around a bit to take pictures of pretty and shiny xmas trees!
at 9pm, we decided to go far east plaza to shop a little more..
& we waited for 25mins for a cab OMG my feets were friggin tired okay!
Luckily I wasnt in heels that day!
&& my aunt got me a Leopard tank which both of us lay our eyes on when we first got into the store!! & a belt & hairband for XMAS ((((:
Yay Im a HAPPY GIRL. =))
Love the ribbon on the tree!
this top is friggin awesome! diggin it!
my FAV mask sheet! :D
bought xmas cards for my lovelies :D
*TWIST*
THE SEX& yesterday I slept for more than 24hrs!
Omg. Seriously.. ;///
Finally feel better today..
& all the medicines are.. causing my throat to be friggin dry
but I cant drink too much otherwise I'd feel very bloated ;/
omg, I thought my health got better..
why did all these gastric shit come back! :((((
Omg. Seriously.. ;///
Finally feel better today..
& all the medicines are.. causing my throat to be friggin dry
but I cant drink too much otherwise I'd feel very bloated ;/
omg, I thought my health got better..
why did all these gastric shit come back! :((((
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