Caught Transformers(2nd time) with Kai today. This time round I didn't miss any parts but Woah, I think I miss like 10mins of the show the first time I watched. Pity for Tian, she missed twice. Grr. Anyways, I felt that the previous Transformers was better, not that The Fallen isnt good. Its really action-packed & some parts are.. hahaha maybe they just wanted to make Megan Fox perfect? 'Cos I really cant figure out why after running for so long her lips are still so perfectly glossly? & I like the part where the 80bound girl turn into some other ''stuff''. Bumblebee still as cute as ever ;D Aiyah I dont wanna be a further spoiler for those who hasnt caught it yet. Anw I am really awed by how HOT this film is. Seriously. The seats, after a week, are still almost fully taken! I wanted to post some pics of Transformers but I dont know why blogger isnt allowing me :(
Oh & after the movie, we did shopping :)) Hop by OrchardCentral & wowwowow, many many new shops. There's this Japanese shop, "Mika" something.. my first time seeing it on/offline, price quite steep though. Like a tee for $129? Hmm.. There's this new store, like fighting with Subway eh. Haha well you will know what I mean when you see it. One of the best store is "Catus" Ah I kinda forget the s[elling already but they sell really good stuff. :) Oh & not forgetting a dessert shop? Its wonderful. Very pretty cake! I would really have sat down for a bite if my stomach werent FULL. Gahhgahh I really wish I could show you pics here but after 5 attempts, I give up. Hm, we went to 2 Toy "R" Us because KK badly wanna see his Transformers toy & I gladly accompany him. Hello, from the bottom of my heart k not just for the sake of it :) Like how you'd stand beside me to give me opinions of accessories for hours LOL. Today was also his virgin trip to a flea market. Hahaha I only grab a top. Cute aye like it :) && we bought matching pens again! Haha I dont know why but I/we just have this habit of buying matching pens :D Eh & I saw this awesome clutch I have to get it! Nvm, I'll save up for it. After I settle my hp bills GRRRRRRRRRRRR. :((( Whats more KK love it as much as I do :) Ehh & I got myself 2 nail polishes today at a STEAL. Omg. & 1 of it is Electric Blue? Goodness I've been searching HIGH & LOW for it since forever!! & cant believe I got it at a steal. I refused to buy the O.P.I one 'cos its too ex!! I seriously wouldnt spend like over $5 for 1 nail polish? Hahaha. Oh & I saw this really nice outer wear which cost $40 but the materials like SO THIN it be so easily torn! I wanted to try but the Q is so effing long & KK doesnt seem too happy with girls pushing him so frequently so I decided to come by another day. :) Its all good, he wasnt feeling very well so hee I'll be nicer. I had a smiple great day today.

PS: After visiting OrchardCentral today, I cant wait for 313 Somerset & Ion!!
Omg, more shopping malls = lighter wallet

Eh, I wanna go BKK eh. Like seriously. I really cant stop thinking or yakking about it. Hahhaa I just need to go there. I need a job!

Wow, text filled entry.

Hi all :)
Holidays coming to an end!
I guess this is the most relaxing and happy holiday ever. Minus all the shits I get during ___ & from the lady at home.
Although I've gained much weight but ah, screw that.
I had my favourite durians, I had pizzas, I had satays, I had Otahs, I had Kfc, I had chocolates, I had a few DVD sessions with Kai's family, I had delicious dinner @ KK's place, I went to Pasar Malam, I sleep in till like 12pm, I had shoulders and feet massages from KK, I played Badminton with Yuhiang Peipei Lynn & Kaikai(like omg, BADMINTON, like my favourite!!! omg seriously I love it to hell IDK why. Date me ah, anyone. Pls, for badminton sessions), I had my hair done. I celebrated Liqi's bday with the presence of KK Qiqi & Ellison, all the lovely people :) I met up with Wantian to catch Transformers, I drop by Adeline's workplace to catch up with her, I met Qiqi for shopping & chitchats, I met Damian for juicy gossips, I took the initative to text a few of my long lost good buddies. OH & the project discussion went rather well :) Though the trip to BKK didnt happen, I am still a happy girl. The only thing that upsets me are the fats on my body now. After what Wantian told me yesterday, I am even more determined now haha. Boo. Its all good :) We will go to the Yellow Ribbon Run together :) Send me the link ok Tian. Oh & because of the "Before After Before After" thing you introduced me to watch on Youtube ytd, I was well entertained! HAHAHA.


(now just some words for some really good friends)

Everytime I have time of my own, random thoughts will just fly round my brain.. I still really miss those times where 82 used to have fun together, not that we cant anymore, I guess I also need to put in more effort, more commitment in the friendship. As time goes by, there're lesser people left who'd eventually make the effort to meet up for celebrations. Birthdays, Christmas, Valentines Day etc.. Probably we just really need to set a date, where everyone can make it & no one is to back out the last minute otherwise we'd do a forefeit or just anything to secure that promise.
Also, I miss those time spent with Adeline,Adel & Nat. They're such happy & naughty people. They make me feel even happier and crazier around them. We used to hang out @ Adel's place WHICH IS AT BEDOK omg. We'd hang out till so late in the night & eventually cab home. & even though I hate it so much when Adeline plays MAPLE over there, we still have fun saying random stuff. & of course, now that we're all in different schools, plus commitments with our partners, its definitely more tough to find time but its okay, at least the other time when BOTH of you initiatied a meetup, it happend :)) I was really glad. Although it was a short one but its all good and comfy.
The other 2 boys, Mr Tan & Mr Huang. Confirm 100% chop they will Always be there. Like Always. I dont even have to fear anything. Its like, you know they'd be there to support whatever decisions you make, they will give you the best advise etc. & of course this once when I broke down(omg its so stupid), Ellison was there. So after a call, he got ready & met me under my block. I shouted(ok I talk but it was very loud my voice was literally challenging the sound of the cars and motorbikes, & of course the other day my voice was gone) all the way from my place to Orchard. We walk, mind you. Did not take any transport. He was there, listening to my craps, taking all my shits, did not ask me to stop at any point of time, tried to say comforting words, agreed with whatever I say so that I will feel better.. basically he was there.. Ya, it was really comforting to have a friend like that.
Also, I miss hanging out with Ace, Maybelle, Kaesen, Mae, Stephanie so much. They wont see this but yea.. I do.
Not that I do not love my current closer friends or whatsnot, its just that, you know, I miss all the rest.

Oh last but not least, BUIBUI, dont say I bias or what lah k, dont be jealous of my friends or what eh, HAHAHA I love you :D Thanks for everything.

After 13 days of stayover, back home last night & nothing changes.
I thought I could manage 3 days @ home myself then its freedom for me again.
Now I kind of regret, but too late to change anything so I just have to stay put and ''tahan'' everything till 1 July.
I miss KK, his home & his family.

It's almost 4am now and I cant sleep
Lucky enough though to have "That Fool" to accompany me.
Sadly the net only has it till Epi 13 for now and Im already at Episode 10.
Few hours later I'd be in school to rush all my designs
..............
I have like more than 10 to do eh. How to complete. Zzzzz

I seriously dont know wtf is wrong
Is it me or its the rest
There are so many things that are irritating me now
I am trying so hard to push all the bad emotions away
I tried to smile smile smile and always put on a smile so that probably sooner or later deep down I'd really feel better
I slowly realise it doesnt work
I am back to square one.
Then there're people who will not understand and they say things like 'its not the end of the world what'.
Like wth, hello. You are not in my position.
Everyone has different things that will trigger their emotion.
Mine is obviously different from yours so what angers me may not anger you and vice versa.
Dont generalise things like that.
"You dont deserve all these" I bear this tightly in mind every single second now because I felt it really make a whole lot of sense.
I really do not care who will look at this post and laugh because its my blog and I have every rights to pin down my feelings.
You dont like it? Then too bad. Dont come back. Dont bother.
There are things which I used to do to calm myself down or make myself feel better but because I have restrictions now I cant do it.
This has also result in poorer anger management because I hasnt vent things out.
I need to adjust. There are so many events coming up and I need to be alert and set aside my feelings during school. I really feel so bad for myself. One reason why I dont wish to pull a black face is because its my own problem so why should I burden people and make their day bad somehow or another?
I am sad. So sad. I just cant manage it this time.
Home is suppose to be the safest place yet everyday I fear going home.
I cant sleep well in the night and I've been having nightmares for weeks. Still, I try my best to be in school and give my best.
It seem like no one really cares about my feelings. Everyone is selfish at some point of time I guess. Then what about when they needed me? Wasnt I there? Always offering my ear?
I need some change.
I dont know why but I just feel so rejected.
Sigh.

I have a really sick mum
just friggin spoilt my whole day or probably whole week
I really pity myself, very much do.
(close friends, pls sms me to ask if you really care. too personal to say it here.)



I dont feel like doing anything now
or be committed to anything
Life look so bleak

Today

x Is my Dad's Bday! Happy Birthday Daddy! Wo Ai Ni! Sarang Haeyo! Aishiteru! Aku Cinta Padamu! Muacks Muacks XOXO ;D

x I did some light retail therapy. Left home empty handed, came back with 1 Top 2 Skirt 1 Pants 1 Eye shadow 1 Card Holder 1 Slipper, 1 Mask(foc) 1 Fluffy Pink Pen(foc). There is this new korean make up store in PS and they were giving out free mask/pen so yea :D I am so lucky. The store itself is so bright and pretty. It was SO packed! Initially I wanted to buy Nail Polishes or some cream etc but there were just TOO many people so Boo, another time then. Anw I did shopping alone because ya, I think its good to have some time to myself :) though there is no one there to give me opinions on which colour or size fits better. Bah. Anw I thought I was really good girl today because I controlled myself really well(didnt buy "useless" stuff). Anw I popped by AMK Hub to see Kaikai and also to buy my eye shadow because it was DIRT CHEAP. Wanted to get the loose powder & blusher as well but ah, decided to shop for those another time with KK around. Hopped by Iluma to find Adeline & accompanied her :) Not bad ah but she look really bored hahahahha so of course after I arrived she became very happy ;X Then I also help her serve customers cos' I itchy hand itchy mouth LOL ;P Damian came and we shopped a little bit at Bugis. There were SOOOOOOOO many people at BHG! & the Q was madness! We wanted to get some stuff but wah it'll take us at least 30mins to Q lah! So we deiced to give it a miss. Grr. Bused home. & Woo, I spent ONLY $27.50 today on my stuff(exclude food/drinks) Yay Im a Happy Girl :D

Current

x Cannot decide whether to go to the flea tomorrow because grr, I dont wanna shop alone. But I am also very paiseh to ask my friends to accompany me ;XXX Ehh actually 5% of the reason cos' I very lazy to walk in the sun la ;xxxxx AHAHAHAHHA.

x Feel very sad because the Green Tea Cake I bought for Daddy wasnt nice :( Idk for him but definitely I wont buy something like that again :( Grr maybe because Breadtalk just dont make nice cake?! Idk. :( But Daddy is the best person in the world(as always) even when the Woman say that my cake sucks blahblah, he said "No, my Baobei(meaning darling or sayang) buy one ok. So pretty and so wonderful." Omg Ai si ni le daddy ;DD Even though I know its not true alas but hahaha I love you.

x Feel very sticky but very lazy to get my ass off the chair to bathe! HAHAHA I know la, smelly right. Wahlao but I always smell good luh =.= -Cough- Btw I lost like $6 @ Simei the other day but nvm.. nvm.

x Very broke. Really really broke.

x Hm, there are some stuff which is on top of my mind now and I need to clear it off soon. I need to bake cookies, I need to bake a cake, I need to go for a picnic, I wanna go to Marina Barrage, I need to fucking exercise, I want to sign up for some Yoga class HAHAHA, I want to have more stayovers so that I can see less of that Woman. Well, holidays starts on 13 June BUT I am already packed for the whole 3 weeks. Wow. Thats why I need time for myself :) Grr Grr, I want to work as well. I need to work, I want a job.

x & B, dont worry ah, I didnt forget promising you to bake cookies/cake together :) We will hop by KK's place soon okay :))) Heeheeeheeeheee But I really very lazy leh. :( Grr grrr.

x Sad, this June cannot go BKK. So many activities going on(SCHOOL) & its not a really safe period to travel eh? Hmm..

Cough+Flu=Very Unhappy Me :(

Missed school for 2 days.
Bused down to Plaza Sing but after a short chat with Qiqi,
we both decided to see the doctor instead.
So I gave Ms Wong the info & cabbed down to CCK Polyclinic to find Qi.
Wah, first time in my life ah, such a short waiting time.
& we had to wear mask?! Wah I really couldnt take it ah, cause like have to cough inside the mask?! Its damn disgusting please. I almost died. So I just took it off la after taking a few pics with it. Grrr.
Polyclinics really cheap la, & this time round I had company and didnt have to wait for sucha long time so it was okay.
Well certain things happened.. But I wont share. Things are cleared now.
Stayed over @ Kai's and this morning he told me I had threw "a Party" last night.
Why?
Cause I cough non stop. Ok I do remember coughing quite a lot but NON STOP!??
I ate my medicine on my own, without him reminding blahblah and felt a sense of achievement Hahaha. okay whatever.
Planned to go to school today but this morning I was too tired. Probably because I didnt really had a good slp the night before.. and the medicine caused me to be really drowsy..
KK also gave school a miss, I could tell he was really tired.. Tried to call him up for school from 8am but I could tell from his face that he was too exhausted to even open his eyes for 2mins.
So we both decided to rest more though there was a F1 briefing today and I badly didnt want to skip.
KK, without complaining, like seriously, first time ah. ;P Went down to get me lunch :D
Psp-ed and laze around..
Basically I did nothing else but sleep and eat la.
May I recover soon.
Thank God I werent at home last night. If I were, with the amount of cough I make the lady @ home would nag non stop again. Tsk.
I feel so sad that I cant sleep peacefully @ my own home and sleep better at others.
Ah whatever I dont wanna get emotional.
Will be heading Simei with KK tomorrow so WINNIE, I hope we'd bump into each other :)
This time for real I confirm will be at Simei ;X From 2pm onwards.
Wanted to have a picnic with KK tomorrow but I guess with my body condition its best not to hang around too much.
WELL, we had a really bad verbal fight yesterday. I was really stubborn and didnt wanna give way.
I was mad piss and I was coughing so badly and sneezing non stop as well so all these didnt help me get any better.
I merely wanted him to just be nicer(not that hes not) just that.. ah nvm.
We are all fine now.
I really hate fights like that because I feel bad for him and for myself.
I, or rather we know that deep down its all said out of anger and nothing really meant what it was spelled out as it is.
I'm still glad to have you.

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"Once upon a time there was a boy who loved a girl, and her laughter was a question he wanted to spend his whole life answering."

wow, indeed.

hey syg
wanted to send you the info online but you went off when I came back so here it is:
The Abby Boat Shoe in Leprechaun
(Style # VN-0XFV2W2)


ok minah, I hope this will do a big help in finding =)




eh,
I have Minutes of meeting(DJCLUB) to complete
& to print some form and scan a pic then email back to ayg
& also needa email the FCP people
& also starting on Report 2 for IEP Project soon
& this week has been really slacky and relaxing.
but this taxi driver just had to spoil it last night but nvm..


sometimes I think back of my actions and feel that Im very xialan
then again, you are equally as xialan
so probably we click well being xialan to each other(when its needed)
look @ how you pisses me off @ the carpark just now?
Really qian da
but anw I still love you dumbo. ^^V

Love is a special four letter word
Love is simple
Love is strong
Love leaves a great impact on our emotions when truly experienced
Love brings out the better of us
Love makes me do crazy things
Love changes us
Love is a battle
Love is a big challenge you have to overcome hand in hand with your other half
Love shouldn’t be taken for granted
Love is worth fighting for
xoxo, anita




KK, I hope you'll take time to read.
Maybe it is still too early to say anything now but you do make me feel the way I want to feel, to be pursued, to feel being treasured, to make any moment spent together magical, to make me smile, to kick away my sorrows.


No one else (other than my mother) makes me feel angry, depressed, crazy or frustrated like you do. On the contrary, you make me ecstatic, surprised, in love and feel bliss.


I want to thank you for making the effort, going the extra mile just to get things cleared and end my day with a smile. Even though sometimes you get irritating and a little too sensitive, I try to understand where you’re coming from. No one else has ever dragged himself off bed after a few hours of sleep to cook breakfast, wash the dishes, and when I offer to help with washing, you just shove me off to watch the tv, rest or stay by and watch you. With you I feel secure, every time when you watch and put to sleep before you do, when you close my ears as the thunders are gonna roar, when you are fully drained but still want to send me home which take around 45mins-1hr to and fro, when you never fail to offer help with carrying my school bag even though I resist but you always insist, and many more.


I know I’ve been a little more cocky-ier these days but that’s because my mum is really driving me crazy at home and all I want is for you to listen to sayang and to tell me that things will be fine and you will always be by my side. I am glad that I still have your crib to hide when my mum turn too nasty. I hope we will not be too much affected by my mum as we know its not worth it at all. I’m glad you appreciate what I’ve done on your Birthday and declare it to be your best Birthday ever. I hope everyday is like Valentines Day for us. xoxo

RANDOM;


I went downstairs to catch some fresh air just now, alone.
As I lay down and look at the sky,
many things flew in my mind.
Not birds, not planes, just thoughts.
There were so many different emotions surrounding me as I look at the clouds with my earpiece on.
I always thought I owe you a lot, for the care you and your family used to give me
I was not emotionally sane for some while because I felt so guilty
Nothing beats feeling guilty, feeling like a bitch.
You blame me, blame me and kept blaming me.
You blame me for having someone new, for loving another person, for leaving you, for not trying more or harder.
You told me so many forevers, you said you could love me and no more.
Then again, I see you with someone new now. So shouldnt you move on with your life, happier without me?
It's so stupid now that I think back all the things you've said and all the blames you've pushed.
I am not going to take anything because you are not suffering now with someone new isnt it?
Whatever we had was special. Was. & its all history now.
& I finally have the courage to say.. all these.




You and I, both strongheaded.
These days hasnt been smooth.
Our love isnt running dry, but my energy is.


With my Mom always giving me such terrible headaches,
& now all the unpleasant things happening,
I feel so pissed off with life.